When I took on the role as my Mum’s PA / Carer, one of the first tasks I had in mind was a bloody good clear out. Over the years her house had become extremely cluttered and I found it to be discombobulating, so I can’t even begin to imagine how she must have felt.
During an epic afternoon of brutality inside the kitchen cupboards, I stumbled across old recipe cards, books, and magazines. Some recipes I recognised from my childhood, such as ‘Puff Top Steak Pie’ which was a classic cheap, yet wholesome meal we loved. It might sound fancy, but the steak element was actually from a tin but the fluffiness of the goldened mash potato that sat on top, was truly the star of the show.
Some magazine cuttings could possibly be from the 1970s, but it’s not always easy to tell and many of the gems I found don’t have dates on them.
As my Mum’s carer, cooking is, naturally, a big part of my job. My Mum was used to eating ready meals and pizza before I took on the role, and I wanted to make it my mission to cook her nutritious, tasty and satisfying food.
I decided I was going to start making meals from these ancient recipes that she’d held on to for so long. There must of been a reason she collected these specific ones and as somewhat of a sentimental Susan, the concept of dissecting her recipe memories makes me feel closer to her and the to the past.
I knew I wanted to blog the process, but as my lower back issue was in full-on-pain mode, I thought it would be easier to film it. I figured it was less time spent at the desk. What an idiot I was because the editing took me far longer than a blog ever would, but I thoroughly enjoyed doing it.
I was petrified to film this and most of the time during editing I just wanted to delete it all out of sheer self-hatred. Who honestly enjoys the sound of their own voice or the sight of their own face? But I told myself to get a grip, and I’m pretty proud of how it came out.